My biggest fear lately is that I won't be reflecting the image of God when my family and friends really need me to be. I know that I know that I know that God is for me, and that His hand is on my life. I have seen Him open doors and abruptly close others. But when people watch me struggle with medical issues, will they see the image of God in me and on me? I do hope so.
If tomorrow I breathe the last breath of this earthly air, I now have the comfort of knowing that I will see my family again in heaven (praise the Lord!!!). I know I would run to Jesus if He called my name and had His arms open wide. But will I shout His name and dance in His mercy like a child dancing in the rain even if my path requires me to live with chronic pain for years and years and years? I do hope so.
Father guide me and let me go and make disciples of all nations, leading them to you and your warmth and compassion that you have for us, your beloved creation. Walk with me and carry me when I am in danger of taking the wrong turn and veering off the path you desire for me. THANK YOU for blessing me with the opportunity to take part in and witness my sweet boys' baptisms!!!!! Good gravy that was amazing and a total answer to a very specific prayer. You are big and you move tall mountains in us and through us. Use me. I'm yours.